yes i do. fuck right.
well, today was INTERESTING. last night was fairly shitty, and i ended up staying later then i should have working on that fucking oral report of mine. so dad and i were on our way to school, and i realize that i need a note to excuse my absence from first period because i had to set up the doctors appointment so they could take three vials of blood out of me- anyways. i couldn't lift my bag from the back seat into the front seat, no matter what i did. i'm thinking, jeeze, i'm not usually this weak. this kinda sucks. i get to first period, my hands are shaking violently. and oh, my teacher's away- so my oral report has been moved to monday, which means i need to renew my rental of the shawshank redemption. so i debated all 1st period whether or not to stay at school, given me having alot of work to do and all, and i decided against it because i simply didn't have the energy. so i went to attendance and i said i gotta go home. and the lady who loves me was like ok. so she called the church and left a message and i went to lie down, and then the other attendance lady comes in and is all bitchy like "what the hell are you doing here." and i said "well i have i mono." and she says "i know, you should be at home, what the hell are you doing here. i could die." and i say "it's only transmitted by saliva." "i have a weak immune system, i don't care. i'm going to call your emergency contact."
she calls alley's mom who starts on her way and makes me feel like crap for trying to be a decent student. so i feel guilty for getting alley's mom all worried, and meanwhile the secretary who loves me has gotten in touch with my dad and he's on his way. so then bitchy secretary says to her but the other lady's picking her up and lovey secretary says WHAT THE HELL and calls and cancels lynn picking me up. i hate my school. dad gets there eventually and wakes me up. oh jesus christ, this story is so long winded. i wanted to go in detail about the church, not the fucking school. well anyways. daddy picks me up and gives me a choice: i can go home right away, or i can hang out at the church for a while and then go to lunch with him and some of his colleagues. who are arguably pretty cool, minus the god stuff, which surprisingly didn't come up much. anyways, when i get there everyone is so accomadating. they got couch cushions for me from the basement and a yoga mat, and sheilagh's funeral coat [big black and made of wool, very warm.] and a pillow and set up a makeshift bed in the sanctuary, sheilagh listened to some of my apc [i had emotive, it's nice and soothing like] and she liked it and that made me happy =] so i put it on after everyone left and pseudo slept for about an hour. what an experience. i know it sounds strange but it felt like love was just oozing out of the walls or something. it was so peaceful. it was amazing. everything bad just kind of, didn't seem so much, and everything good seemed really good. things are going to be good. my life is great, the people in it are wonderful, and the bad parts, well, they're not so bad. and i've conquered worse. i win. i'm better. my health sucks, but my mind rocks. i'm beautiful. i'll get it tattooed on me some time soon, i'm loved.
oh i totally got off track. anyways, so dad wakes me up and we put stuff away and we go to lunch and talk about ALL THIS CRAZY PHILOSOPHICAL STUFF. i loved it. i love having indepth conversations. we talked all over the map about gay rights and experiences and sexuality and situations where you want to help people but you can't and oh man. yea. this stuff is part of my dad's job, i'm so envious. it was really really cool. i came out with a full stomach and real sense of well being. then i got home and slept for a few hours, and then woke up to talk to mac, and slept for a few more hours, ate dinner with dad, and then watched this ridiculous movie called virtuoisty. i'll never look at russel crowe the same way. what a fucking ridiculous freak. like, AOKLFNSKMJNKJHOPHMIGOD!!!!LKJFASJKKJ!
i'm going to go to bed soon, but yea. things are great. i feel fanfuckingtastic. i win.
i love you lisa, mac, alley, ify, jeremy, renee, natalie, shannon, polyna, alex, dad and mom and cheryl and everyone you're all amazing people [am i missing people? i must be missing people.] ASHLEY. i love you too kishibishi bishi <3

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